It's the beginning of the end for nursing I suspect. Really though, nursing stopped a while ago, Dani just stopped. But, I managed to pump religiously for her to make sure she had as much milk as she needed. Now it seems, from a combination of stress and lack of nursing that pumping will be coming to an end.
Honestly, I'm sitting here crying about this as I write. I had a goal of one year and I feel like I'm letting Dano down by not making it there. It's the one thing that I, and only I can give to her that has so many benefits. It's like health in a bottle.
I've told myself that I need to at least make it to 9 months, I can do this...and now I sit here with tears rolling down my cheek wondering if I really can?! That's two weeks away, but the supply is dwindling fast! I have made a deal with myself that I will stop pumping when I have one continuous week of producing less than she consumes in a day.
I never thought this would be so heart breaking for me.
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